If you ask me how I am, I can guarantee that the words ‘I’m fine, thank you’ are forming on my lips before you finish the question.
Automatic pilot is my partner-in-crime, well even my phone operates on Android!
I’m not intentionally rude or disinterested, rather I am guarded and thoughtful (my words, of course!) I tend to think before I speak, analyse what I am going to say and calculate the probable reactions beforehand.
In a nutshell, I am a control freak.
Unless you are one of the very few people who really know me, then you will only ever see my outer disguise.
In a crowd, I will hide away and avoid unnecessary small talk.
If forced to participate, my comments are usually heavily veiled with sarcasm. (For me, there is a subtle line between saying what you mean and saying what you mean with sarcasm – it’s a less direct approach of course, but the point is generally delivered)
If I have to take the lead in a group or a meeting, then I aim to be professional. It will be planned and managed accordingly. There is no room for error – that would make me human!
You might think that this all makes for very dull writing – and you might be right (I couldn’t possibly comment!) Oh, I must add here that self-deprecation is also up there with sarcasm!
But, just because I am not the centre of attention, it doesn’t mean that I am not observing everyone else.
People watching is hugely rewarding, in terms of creating characters and developing reactions.
Of course, you’d never find me writing romantic fiction or an adventure series – that would be way too weird.
Although, it does explain why I like to write mysteries, tales of revenge, parodies and fantasy!
After all, seeing is believing – and I see everything (then analyse it, review it, classify it, categorise it and eventually write it!)